看著白云。。。

～ 攝于澳洲 · mt.buffalo

那天， 看著藍天白云， 我寫下了下面的幾行字：

人生如逆旅，光陰的過客，
這婆娑世界，活在這一刻。

魚在水中游，水中不知水，
人在福中求，福中不知福。

要感謝父母，養育子女恩，
供書教學苦，起居生活奔。

一天又一天，一年又一年，
終長大成人，多少期望盼。

到底為什么，會來這一趟，
會來這一趟，到底為什么。

七十古來稀，四十才開始，
輕易就放棄，你說值不值？

要相信自己，要發揮自己，
人可以勸你，抉擇在自己。

藍天與白云，總是那么美，
想著你和我，回憶里最美。


看著藍天白云，你， 又想起了什么？
還是，你很久沒抬頭仰望天空了？ 若是，就找一天，看看你頭上的藍天吧！
活著， 不是為了工作，但工作，是為了能繼續活著，
活著，是為了能繼續活著， 繼續活著，又是否是為了活著？
如果你被我所講的給弄混淆了，對不起， 我不是有心的，但這至少證明了你還活著。
好了，我也不知我在說什么了，還是就此停鍵盤吧.
最后， 祝你快樂！

aspiration comes from inspiration

Obstacles never turn us down
Believe is an attitude
Always positive we are
Miracle is coming our way
Aspiration comes from inspiration

<<最初的美好>>

天与地，月和日，自然的定律，

多少世，难忘记，岁月已飞逝，
不再续，想放弃，谁说太容易，

我和你， 在那里，多美的际遇，
星空里， 下着雨，花瓣的诗意，
脑海里， 成回忆，永远的记忆，

最初的美好， 是否还美好，
拿起了多少， 你记得多少，
父母已经老， 要待他们好，
人生的试考， 谁人可以跑？

最后的美好， 珍惜才能找，
放下了多少， 我已记不了，
岁月催人老， 你看开就好，
世事庸人找， 哈哈没烦恼。

before and after

i know i will meet you, before i know i have eyes,
i know i will talk to you, before i know i have mouth,
i know i will online because of you, before i know internet,
i know i will drive all the way, before i know the moving machine,
i know i will not able to concentrate in coding, before i know what is java,
i know i will leave me alone, before i know i am living in a world called greed,
i know i will leave you happy, before i know you have to go through this unhappy;

i wish i can enter into the space, which i might get wounded,
i wish i can do what i think i can do ( for you), where it might be too much ( for you),
i wish i can take away my mind, which the core 2 duo is not even one over million of it,
i wish i can wish that i no need to wish, which u might not know what i wrote in this line,

i knew i will still meeting you, after i know i have my eyes,
i knew i will still talk to you, after i know i have my mouth,
i knew i will still online because of you, after i know the Internet,
i knew i will drive all the way, after i know this moving machine,
i knew i will still not able to concentrate in coding, after i know java,
i knew i will leave me alone, after i know i live in this greedy world,
i knew i will leave you happy, after i know you already gone through the unhappy.

[p/s: the author uses "knew", "know" as he likes, no grammar matter when comes to expression.]

<<自然 - 淡然>>

雁渡寒潭，雁去潭不留影；
风动幡动，仰或你心在动；
正念负念，就在那一转念；
没有失败，成功还未到位；
因为相信，所以相信；
愿意相信，才会相信；

春夏秋冬，时光它无影踪；
酸甜苦辣，人生滋味尽尝;
黑白之间，是否总是带灰；
向左向右，难选还得要走；
季节味道，颜色方向；
因循自然，方得淡然。

because of you....

because of you,
  my place is here; ( where will i be in the future? i am not sure..)
because of you,
  all i want to do is get away and hide in a new place;
because of you,
  life has never been this "good"...
because of you,
  answer is in everybody's heart
because of you,
  yesterday i miss the most;
because of you,
  so what else more can i expect from you?
because of you,
  i can always see cloud(s) in the sky.
because of you,
  a change would be a better tomorrow.

[P/S: look at the 1st character of every even number line..]

what is flexibility in life?

what is flexibility in life?

flexibility is
when you buy me a Porsche, i am happy,
but if you buy me a bicycle, i am happy too.

flexibility is
when you spend me a fine cuisine, i am happy,
but if you spend me a "roti canai", i am happy too.

flexibility is
when you buy me a LV bag, i am happy,
but if you buy me a power ranger bag, i am happy too.

flexibility is
when you praise me, i am happy,
but if you criticize me, i will not feel sad, however, i will thank you.

flexibility is
when i can write a good program, i am happy,
but if i m not success in that, i will not simply give up.

flexibility is
when you buy me a mansion, i am happy,
but if you buy me an "atap house", i am happy too.

flexibility is
when i have gathering with lots of friend, i am happy,
but if i am alone reading in my little room, i am happy too.

flexibility is
when you bring me to theme park, i am happy,
but if you bring me to desert, i am happy too.

flexibility is
when you give me flexibility, i am happy,
but if you do not give me any flexibility, i am OK too.

hence,
i live my life as i live my life,
i am happy despite of the surrounding, environment
i am happy regardless of any thing that happened to me,
i am happy because i m happy.

"I am contented with what i have,
but not dejected because of what i do not have."
~ [forgot who quoted this, :) ]

不知为什么

昨天回来之后， 不知道为什么，
好像接近世界末日似的， 突然间，
不知道要做什么，心里很空洞， 空虚，

难道真的是碰到所谓的， 达成了想要做的事，
人就会突然变得没有目标， 失去方向，
就好像很多太空人上了太空， 回来都得了忧郁症，
一个两个都需要心理治疗，不然有的还想去自杀，
哈哈， 我当然不会去自杀的啦，
人身难得， 生命可贵，
况且我妈妈十月怀胎， 如此辛苦把我生出来，
我不会令她失望的， 何况我不是个普通人呢（我常常这样告诉我自己的）！

我想飞去那美丽的天空， 快乐遨游， 飞翔， 跟你，
但是， 我还没回到地上，我不知怎样飞上去；
等有一天， 我着陆了， 我会飞的。

人活在这个世界上， 真的可以做自己想要做的事吗？
真的可以， 无拘无束， 逍遥自在， 不顾一切， 勇往直前吗？
真的可以， 义无反顾， 海阔天空， 老鼠爱大米吗？

忽近忽远，忽明忽暗，
忽乐忽悲，忽然想你；
我，会想一想， 好好想一想，
我， 该怎么做。

<声母>+ong

难以形容， 你的从容，
昔日笑容， 不再动容；

从前相同，现在不同，
不能一同，达致共同；

看似很懂， 其实不懂，
我只是懂，我不曾懂；

空会是空， 因为它空，
你看它空， 其实不空；

满脸通红， 只为花红，
看满江红， 考试也红；

人群之中， 秀外慧中，
空气之中， 香味其中。

<<十份天真>>

十点十分， 想你十分，
嘴角迷人， 动人十分；

夜已入深， 思绪低沉，
浮华人生， 只在一睁；

我的心声， 能否成真，
已不敢问， 也不愿问；

到底人生， 为何而争， 为谁情深，已失天真。

拓展新日

时光飞逝，我已不是，等闲之士；

回首旧日，胆小幼稚，没有见识；

没有那次，哪有这次；
没有上次，哪有下次；

我的心事， 谁能透视，已无关事；
抛开旧识， 从新展翅，东升旭日；

心要有志， 更要尝试；
写下伟迹， 拓展新日。

(verb)-ING

outside raining, my heart dying,
something going, without knowing;

some time passing, patience losing,
keep on going, or just leaving;

another thing, another scene,
memorizing, the current scene;

the end is the beginning of another end,
leaving is the meeting of another leaving,
breaking is the joining of another breaking;

i am leaving, with my wishing,
wish you be good, wish you be strong,


never knowing, this happening,
some thing is fixed, we just accept.

近 - 远

看似很近却又有点距离
那些期待已久的日子
是否就快呈现清晰
总是莫名的想起
我已不能自己
就是想一起
离开这里
到哪里
不必
理
可以
就一直
就这样子
看着你影子
就能填满日子
籍这首诗把事记
那红豆依然最相思
期盼时间在这刻静止
让我能永远冰封这记忆

<<寄给你>>

夜
低垂
成思念
莫名感觉
涌入我心彻
宛如秋风吹起
掠过我内心最深
就在这深秋的寂夜
不知你是否也望着月
一见一语一面一句默契
总在辞别时掩我不舍
不能不记得去记得
你的眼眸你身影
秋风它又吹起
我已告诉它
这份祝福
满满的
寄给
你

what am i doin..be there for you

woke up early, thought i was late,
quickly got to, the place we meet,
hoping to see, that you are there,
opened my eye, opened machine,
waiting awhile, then i am there.

did not see you, but it is ok,
because i know, you are tire,
tire of life, tire of work,
so i hope you, could take more rest,
really worry, about your health,
really really, worry your health.

told me before, it's not easy,
i understand, your situation,
but this is life, you have to face,
got to be stronger, do what you can,
and i believe, you can do that,
and especially, when you believe.

never give up, never give up,
when you go through, this crazy life,
and it will be, the time that you,
grow up the most, you learn the most,
better future, light up for you,
i sincerely, wish you the best,
and remember, i will always,
be there for you, I'll come to you.
be there for you, always for you.

妈妈，对不起，谢谢你。

最近不知为什么，有时和妈妈谈天，
谈得有说也有笑，可是有时当妈妈，
问到我一些问题，也不是你所想的，
那些严重的问题，或是恼人的问题，

可我会在那当时，一下忍不住自己，
提高嗓子回妈妈，语气也不是很好，

过后才知道自己，刚才不应该这样。

其实曾经跟自己，讲过不该这样子，
说好和妈妈聊天，就要好好听她说，
不要打断她的话，还要好好回答她，
再给她一个微笑，可我还没能做到。

也不是说我常常，会对妈妈太大声，
只是觉得自己啊，实在是个不孝子，
妈妈辛苦养大我，给我世上最好的，
小时生病照顾我，就算长大也一样，
她老人家的心里，孩子永远长不大，
时时念念都挂着，我们过得否快乐，
从来不是为自己，就算已经六十一。

妈妈真的对不起，伤你的心我愧疚，
如何做个好孩子，是我一生的功课，
你的辛苦与牺牲，比天还高比海深，
就算用尽我一生，也不足以来报答。

在此我要说一声，其实也不只一声，
而是很多很多声，妈妈妈妈谢谢你，
我会改变我自己，好好的陪你聊天，
和你聊天到天明，让你快乐又高兴，
这是我八月五日，许下的一个心愿，

夜~ 12：15

A calm ocean will never make a strong sailor

i can understand your feeling very well...i am also in a situation same as you now...

but we should never give up.....u know...you are not defeated when you fall down...but when you do not stand up and continue your journey....

life is like that...it is never easy....yes, never easy..see...i still keep in myself as positive as i could...i never say life is hard or difficult...i use a preceded positive word with a not....we still see the word "easy"....this is how our mind works, or more precisely, the way our sub conscious mind works..it just always ignore the word "NOT"....and just accept the adjective or the word after the ''NOT" or "NO"....

do not believe me....ok...like this....please do not think about the Eiffel tower in Paris....bet you...your are thinking about the Eiffel tower which i ask you do not think about it.....Don't think that i am laughing at you...hehe....once again...i believe your mind just thought of the way i laugh at you...correct....Oops...may be u never saw the way i laugh at you...hehe...

what i am try to say here is no matter what happen...we still have to keep ourselves as positive as we could....because at the end of the day...your are either happy or not happy...and you still have to live your day..am i right?...at this moment...i suddenly thought of a meaningful quotation which goes like this ~~ "to cultivate a positive thinking is better than earning a thousand pounds a year"...this quotation is as old as about 200 years already..

stress and change are necessary in our life...but i never ask you to purposely go to find or look for stress la.....they will some how come to you....we just accept them..and try to cope with them...the more we fight back with them ( stress )..the suffer we are....accept the reasonable changes.....and embrace it.....because next time when we look back our life with the most difficult stage...it is actually the time that we learn and grow the most...we become stronger and mature and steady because of those tough time....

remember, a calm ocean will never make a good sailor....it is the cruel ocean and wave that make you stronger....

wish you happy....again, you can when you believe....

rgds, :)

即兴小詩 <<澤斯杜伊>>

昨天晚上， 朋友聊天;　談了很多，真的很多

從談話中，她講一句;　耐基口號，澤斯杜伊

我很肯定，你看不懂;　甚麼叫做，澤斯杜伊

再想一想，甚麼叫做;　澤斯杜伊，澤斯杜伊

哈哈哈哈，猜到了嗎;　如果不能，我將答案

公佈出來，讓你看看;　澤斯杜伊，英文就是

JUST D O I T; 　也真的巧，也八個字

可以美麗，放進這首;　我所謂的，八字小詩

對了對了，忘記提起; 讀著這篇，小詩的你

應該知道，我所說的;　那個朋友，就是你囉

言歸正傳，回到正題;　以前的我，很多時候

想得太多，拖得也多;　空有計畫，沒有半劃

像我媽媽，講的華語;　有福建音，沒有ｂａｎ4ｈｕａ4　（辦法）

那個時候，再次聽到;　澤斯杜伊，感受較深

較能體會，固中涵意;　謝謝朋友，你的提醒

從今以後，澤斯杜伊;　會在我心，JUST DO IT

我還記得，我也回你;　麥可喬丹，每天練習

刻苦投籃，每天六百;　台上十分，台下十年

今日成功，過去付出;　明日幸福，還看今日

這次我就，寫到這裡;　如果覺得，不錯的話

或有感受，歡迎留言;　祝你快樂，我的朋友

夜 2:45.

<<第十二天>>

時間飛逝, 不知不覺; 這樣就已, 第十二天

一切從頭, 其實不易; 爸爸一直, 以來也說

世上萬事, 起頭皆難;.

可是始終, 還是這樣; 只要我們, 是有心人;

相信沒有, 甚麼困難; 可以阻擋, 我們去向;

肯定沒有, 甚麼風浪; 可以動搖, 我們意願;

必然沒有, 甚麼風雨; 可以吹毀, 我們決心.

還有一句, 也是爸爸; 在我中五, 鼓勵我的

船到橋頭, 自然會直; 其實不必, 顧慮太多

只要邁出, 那第一步; 山明水秀, 就在前方

告訴自己, 也告訴你; 是的是的, 也告訴你

你我人生, 不止這樣; 我們知道, 天生我才

你答對了, 勢必有用; 重要的是, 重要的是

發現自己, 改變自己; 多多去看, 多多肯定

我們自己, 種種優點; 不要去想, 不要去理

不要放大, 你的缺點;

讓我們哪, 一起加油; 明天肯定, 比今天好;

後天也會, 比明天好; 就是這樣, 越來越好;

哪怕只是, 好一點點; 可是已經, 很足夠了.

早晴夕雨．<<第十二天>>

再見. 六年的同事.六年的歲月

左排: hon yoon, Ms. Jeniffer, choiweei, puiyee
右排: Simon teo, virus (ys), shihfoo, chailim, seahfang

日期：2008年的5月14日。
地点：天苑精进料理坊 （cheras Miharja 花园 ）
时间：下午1：30

这天， 可爱又亲爱的同事们为我办了一个我有生以来的第一个欢送会。哈哈， 说是欢送会， 不如说是惜别会。
首先， 真的很感谢这班好同事， 亦好朋友的心意。
大家在一起同事了六年，也变得像是一家人了，最近我提出要离开的日子里， 大家更有一份说不出的感觉。嘿嘿， 这当然不是在讲我有什么超人的影响力或是个人魅力， 而是一种同事的一份情嘛。你能够明白吗？

啊， 对了， 这个惜别会不只是为我办的， 也是为另外一位同事一起办的。她也会在六月间另谋高就去了。

当然， 一向来喜欢写诗的我 （虽然很少发表我的创作， 但我会努力写，然后贴在我的部落格的），我为这一次的惜别会， 铺上了一首我个人认为是诗的东西。。不用讲太多，就看看以下的诗吧：

“ 認識了你們, 在六年前.

C104, 那一間辦公室.

A217, 到如今的.

這些日子, 所走過的,

都刻印在我心中, 點點滴滴, 永遠的.

是如此的天高地厚,當年的我們, 再回首.

經過歲月的洗禮, 時間的領會, 曾幾何時.

更增添了一份穩重成熟與智慧, 如今的我們.

你們給予的, 一直以來

幫助, 分享, 照顧, 付出,

體諒, 包容, 鼓勵, 支持.

不盡，我衷心的感謝

翠麗人生自己創,

湄事不要自己煩;

彩虹你最愛紫色,

琳敏智慧你獨特;

雪賢品味亦心細,

芳慧人生最美麗;

Tremendous, Enthusiastic, Open,

Simply Outstanding, O’ways Neat,

Be Excel ‘N Gorgeous;

漢語英語歌都曉,

云開月明樂消遙;

煜立穩重事謹慎,

成功待你負重任;

Be extraOrdinary, Open thiNking,

CHange usUAl to uNusual;

天天要活得最真，

賜這首詩送你們；

你所有用心, 我都會記住, 以前;

你所有心情, 我都會記錄, 現在;

你所有短訊, 我都會回覆, 以後. ''

怎樣? 還不錯吧?

哈哈, 我的好同事, 雖然咱們見面的機會和時間也少了, 但你們永遠都在我心中,因為在這六年的歲月里, 我除了星期日和放假, 還有我回到家的時候沒看到你們, 差不多可以說其餘的時間, 都是你們配我度過的.. 雖然不是每天, 但我都在之前那句講了, ''差不多可以說其餘的時間''.....

往後, 大家再好好努力, 活出真我的風采., 當然, 我並不是說你們之前沒有活出自我的風采, 而是要你們更發揮自己的潛能, 好好展現最好的你...對了, 正在讀著這篇貼的你, 那排紅色的字也是寫給你的.ok...如果還不懂甚麼是那排紅色的字...那就是 --> 更發揮自己的潛能, 好好展現最好的你.
看到了嗎?

嗯, 我想這次就寫到這裡吧, 對了, 我會放更多的照片, 再下一個post 吧..

於2008年5月20日了. 還有50分鐘就進入午夜12時. 晚安, 各位1

// * as i have moved this blog to a new email a/c, hence below are the comments posted previously..

>> janyang said : 6年的确是一段漫长的时间，分离总是那么的痛苦，只有记住那滋味，那下次再见时才会体会与珍惜相聚的时间 XD Dated: May 22, 2008 9:52 PM

>> chiahou said: Haha, although i just get to know you not more than 1 year. but throughout ur teaching style, i think u are very good and responsible lecturer. So, i wish u have a brilliant future and have a nice day!! Of coz don't forget about us! Dated: May 23, 2008 9:03 PM

hi mr beh...this is so fake lecturer go yum cha together...lolx...hv a good time teaching in TARc...it's an ok place...good luck with future bacth of DIA students...

BY: Marcus Khoo, DIA2 Q4 - 2008 . Dated: May 23, 2008 9:20 PM

>> derred beh replied: hehe, chia hou...thanks for your comment..no worry i will remember you all de la...you all are always in my mind....as my brand name behINmind..hehe

Dated: May 23, 2008 9:20 PM

>> Anonymous said: it was wonderful and unforgetable be your colleague for 6 years time, every morning when the moment i open our office door most of the time will see u and simon .. but now ... is empty table .. need time to adjust and to me you alwyas in A217 Dated: May 25, 2008 7:38 AM

-wahwah- said: huh huh?? Mr.Beh...u r leaving TARC soon ahhh? not teaching us anymore ma? aiyorrr.. ><""

Where will u go...where art thou..?

Anyway, Mr.Teo is Simon ah...hehe

原来如此。。。and...cheras miharja is nearby my current place only ler..

Dated:May 25, 2008 9:55 AM

derred beh said: "to wah: hehe, i am actually working in IT company now...all the best!"

Dated: May 26, 2008 8:25 AM